Sunday, May 9, 2010

Happy Mother's Day

 To all who do "mothering" be it to your own children, you friends, or your community Thank You!

My mother refuses to accept that Mother's Day is very hard for me since losing our son almost 5 years ago now so she took my Little Bit out to get me a present and card. I managed to convince Little Bit I had something in my eyes and wasn't crying but seriously it hurts so much sometimes still.
I know now that Little Bit is more aware, it's important for her to be able to take part in these holidays and such so I understand. But some days I wish this day didn't exist, especially now that I can't have anymore children.

Sorry for the moroseness. I don't mean to bring anyone down but I do want to keep this blog somewhat real. These are my real moments.

11 comments:

Cathy said...

Cara, As I've shared with you my daughter feels the same way after losing her little guy in 2007. That HOLE will aways be in your heart, but I pray you can focus on Little Bit and love her twice as much! My Mother died April 27th and Friday would have been her 83rd birthday. I am an only child and was raised by a single mother...so trust me, I am sad with you! But in all, we are blessed to have those we can SQUEEZE today! :) Cathy

LJ said...

Hugs to you and Cathy in the previous comment!!

quiltmom said...

Cara,
Losing a child is a mother's greatest fear- it is the most painful experience imaginable.
My in laws lost their grown son in a car accident 35 years ago and every year they mourned the loss of their beautiful son. By remembering our loved ones that are gone, we celebrate the existence in our lives. May you find some comfort with those who love you today. Being a mom is complicated - and we all do our best to be real women. Honoring our own feelings is important too.
Warmest regards,
Anna

quiltmom said...

HI Cara,
Here is a link to a blog that you might find of interest...
http://pamperingbeki.blogspot.com/2010/05/mothers-day.html

Hope you do something to pamper yourself today.
Warmest regards,
Anna

Quilt Hollow said...

I can't imagine losing one of my children...my heart just aches for those who have. God Bless you sweetie....I'm glad little bit is able to help fill the heart with love today!!

Heidi said...

Hugs to you Cara!!

hetty said...

Losing a child has got to be the most painful experience imaginable. Even if we can get on with life on a daily basis, special days bring the reality back to us. I feel your sadness. Sending you hugs and warm, comforting thoughts.

Miriam said...

((hugs)) Cara.

Rene' said...

More hugs from me as well! I see you've changed your header again. I like it.

call me crazy said...

{{hugs}} to you~ I can't even imagine your mixed feelings on Mother's Day!

Amy said...

So sorry to learn of your unspeakable loss. Mother's Day must be so difficult - but I imagine every day is hard. I have no words that can make it all better but I do know that sharing your pain has to be a good thing in some way.